Thursday, September 25, 2008

That unspeakable feeling

Some of us have one or more an unspeakable feeling or feelings in our lives about something or someone. The unspeakable feelings can cause a lot of pain both emotional and physical. I know that’s prevalent for me. I call them unspeakable because they may be so personal and painful that you don’t want to share those feelings with anyone for fear that won’t understand, not know what to say or do, or even worse not care at all. My unspeakable feelings have been with me for years and have increased within the past year. They are something I live with on a daily basis it’s as if these painful emotional and physical unspeakable feelings seem to always loom over me. We all may feel or have felt that way. I guess the next best this is try to figure out a way to deal with these unspeakable feelings caused by pain. Some people try to numb the feelings with alcohol, drugs, or whatever else they can think of. That normally leads to more pain and more unspeakable feelings. I don’t think you can ever stop feeling the pain from whatever happen to you emotionally or physically. Well, if it’s physical you can carefully take the pain medication to manage the feeling of pain. Dealing with the unspeakable feeling of emotional pain is not that easy yes, there is medication for it but, it may not be enough. That unspeakable feeling may creep back I know it has done that for me. You don’t want to walk around with these unspeakable feelings forever. I know from experience it’s not the best thing for you. I guess the best way to deal with is to actually speak about the feelings with someone you can truly trust. You don’t want to live your life with your life having that unspeakable feeling.

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

I think some people DO live their whole lives carrying their unspeakable feeling(s). But like an alcoholic who has learned to live with their alcoholism without letting it destroy or define them. We can learn to deal with feeling too. If you can get rid of it or lessen it in a healthy way - and I agree, talking it out, getting it in the light with a trusted friend can do alot to lessen it's grip - do it, but it doesn't have to be fatal. We don't have to let it control us. Insightful post.

Anonymous said...

So what does someone say/do when they have a friend with that unspeakable feeling?? I'm one of those crazies who most CERTAINLY does care....but I definately don't know what to do or say. I often swrew it up terribly. Hmm. I think I just answered myself..perhaps I should just say/do nothing?? but that goes agains the grain for me because it goes back to square one...I often do care. It's in my nature. Any suggestions?? I ask because, like I said, I often screw it up. I also want to reach out to my brother but don't know how. Past efforts have been met with a closed door. Anyway, I love honesty. Nice blog.